Trucks are prohibited...but you are always welcome

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

tell me your heart doesn't race for a burning building


Do you ever get the impulse to jump in front of a car or throw yourself off of a tall building? And please don't misunderstand me, I am not morbid or suicidal, and I don't wallow in the macabre. I would often experience those impulses while going for a walk along highways or riding my bike across a bridge, and would be deeply disturbed by them. "Am I suicidal? Do I want to die?" But then I realized I did not desire death, I simply wanted to experience feeling truly alive. So much of my life is spent in a numb, almost dream-like state that the surge of adrenaline accompanying such a catastrophe was exactly what I needed. Also, I just want to know what it's like to be struck by a car. Call me curious. Do you feel that way, desperate for something, anything to make you feel....really feel alive?
On a lighter note, I am treating myself to a new pair of shoes. I have it narrowed down to two. Help me pick?

3 comments:

  1. Yes! I'm glad I'm not that only one! For me, it's usually when I'm in the car. I'm SO afraid of car wrecks, but sometimes I just get this overwhelming impulse to rear-end the car in front of me! Or run off the road! Just for... kicks, really. The excitement and drama. I don't actually *want* to, and would never purposely do it, but something in me wants that thrill. I do other things to satisfy those impulses like cutting/dying my hair or suddenly deciding to boycott something. :)

    -K

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  2. Gah!! Me too!! Kylin, I just adore you

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